Day 32: Admit defeat, part two

When I was in 7th grade, the super cool 8th graders got to do the fake baby project, where they had to carry dolls around with them all the time, and feed/change/care for them. Four days in, a particularly overachieving 8th grader boarded the bus in tears.

"I'm going to fail Family Life!" she wailed.

The night before, she had forgotten to get a babysitter for her basketball practice. Her baby sat in the gym while she rebounded and ran drills for an hour, and now she was certain that she'd fail the class because of her parental neglect.

I tried to be sympathetic, but I knew that her failure at parenting was fully expected. They want you to make mistakes, so you realize you aren't ready to be a parent yet, I explained to her. Then I probably rolled my eyes when she wasn't looking. I was pretty annoyed at her inability to see the very obvious life lesson of this project.

I'm realizing that my Lent!Blog! failure is a lot like the fake parenting failure. I've been crabby at myself for my inability to blog over the last few days but in all honesty, I should have seen this coming. I haven't done a Lenten sacrifice in something like six years, and I no longer voluntarily attend church so... it should come as no surprise to me that I'm not as beholden to this project as I assumed I'd be.

I also realized this morning that I somehow counted wrong... how am I on Day 32, when Easter is not for another 12 days?

Struggles, all.